Hurry and worry

The month of February 2009 just passed like the swift falcon. Falcon because it reminds me of the shrude guy who stole my bread during the lunch break when I was 12 and adventurous to eat in open air. With no reaction time, one could not help but watch helplessly. Similarly, the month of Feb 09, one could not help but just watch the days go by, each day bringing new challenges and worries, some elements of joy etc. I must confess, it has truly been a roller coaster ride and I have more to go. Hope this time the roller coaster takes an up turn.

Having said this, there is no time to waste, every moment is precious and each task done is to be counted. The months are critical and one must really hurry to wrap things which started in previous semester of Aug 08. So, this post is really a love letter addressed to myself to start taking matters seriously and 'just do it'.

Another reason for this sudden 'hurry' mood is an article which appeared in today's newspaper stating that "in this Indian peninsula, even blog posts which carry hate messages or convey even slight message of hurting the sentiments of common people or against any organisation will not be tolerated". I must therefore, hurry up and delete any such blog posts failing which I can be branded as a traitor to the country which boasts of "freedom of speech" being a constitutional right.

One might argue that deleting is an act of submission, a disgrace to individual independence and ultimately a cowardly act. I too agree, no doubt. But, one must not try to become a superman and must always be aware of his limitations. It is my duty to hope, that some day people will gain true independence. Until that day, I can only be worried and helpless like the scores of others around.

I can be accused of not following my teacher's words, who used to say "hurry makes me worry". But I say, "hurry makes me worry but keeps me alive". For, the more I live, the more I can die another day!

Mood swings

I had read of the biorythm cycle which gives a simple and easy explanation about human's behaviour towards physical, emotional and intellectual orientations on any particular random day based on the date of birth of the particular person. It just draws a sinusoidal curve showing the ups and downs in the three behaviours. So, googled on the website which draws a free biorythm cycle and on this day, as per the cycle, I am high on intellectual and emotional behaviour but low on physical. Wat a combination, Huh!

What it means is I can feel disturbed and tranquilized and not do anything about it. In other words, my feelings wont translate at all into actions because of inert laziness for the next 15 days. What will happen then is even worse, I will have good physical balance but mentally lack the willingness.

How did I come to belive in this 'biorythm' stuff, its just that it matched perfectly with my mood today. But frankly, I wanna break dude! I know everything will come in line once I get home and come back, which I right now cannot do. All I can do at this point of time is believe and blame my biorythm cycle for the 'goings on'.